Sid Roth Story

  I was raised in a traditional Jewish home. Unfortunately, a lot of rabbis wish that wasn’t true, but it is. I had my Bar Mitzvah, and graduated from God.

What I mean by that is I did my Jewish thing.  I didn’t give much thought about God.  He was a million miles away; whereas my father described a burning bush, a fire.  You know, how can you relate to a fire?

So I went to do my own thing.  I blinked my eyes a few times and graduated from an American University.  I blinked my eyes a few more times and was married.  A few more times: I had a daughter.  A few more times: I was an account executive at Merrill Lynch.  A few more times, I was 29 and a disaster.  My goal in life was to be a millionaire before age 30, and I had what is known as an early mid-life crisis. I am not proud of this, but I left my job with Merrill Lynch.  I left my wife.  I left my daughter, and I went searching for happiness.  See, I thought happiness was making a million dollars, and I would have retired a millionaire, but I wanted to do it before age 30 before it would be too late, and so I went searching, and you know something?  If you don’t know what you are searching for, it is a big world out there.

I finally ended up starting my own company and meeting a guy that was one of my salesmen that had taken a cult meditation course, and after taking this course he knew things that had never been programmed into his mind.

I knew that he had information.  Now, being a stockbroker I thought, Whoa, if I can get this kind of information I can make my million dollars and be happy just like in the movies.  So I took the course, and I thought it was a bunch of malarkey to be quite candid with you. But they said they would give me my money back if the acid test didn’t work. 

The acid test was they had a little file card, and on one side of the file card it had someone’s name.  On the other side of the card it had what was wrong with them physically.  So they said to me what is -- and I will make the name up, what is wrong with Mary Jones?  And I am thinking, well, I don’t know what is wrong with Mary Jones, and see by the way they had taught me how to lower my level of concentration so like when someone goes to sleep or hypnosis through mental exercise, and they said when you are at your most docile peaceful state invite  imaginary friend into your head.

Well, I did all this.  I thought it was like I said, a bunch of malarkey, but I wanted my money back, so before I could say I don't know what is wrong with this woman I saw an image of a stick figure, and it was a woman, and there was an X over one of her breasts, and I said, “Could this woman have cancer of the breast?”  The guy looked at me and said, “That’s exactly what is wrong with that person,” and I thought, aha, I now have my key to make a million so I could be like the movies, live happily ever after.

Well, I got more than I bargained for, and this power started growing.  Before I could even ask my counselor, you know, when you get real docile, they said if I had imaginary friend inside of you, they called it a counselor.  Before I could ask my counselor a question, I start getting directives to do things, and for instance let me give you an example.  I thought, boy, I want to start my own company.  I am working for someone, but I want to start my own business, and I just had the thought and a man walks in my office. I knew this man just very casually, and he said, “Sid, my partner and I were discussing you, and we have extra office space and an extra secretary and an extra telephone, and if you would ever want to go into business for yourself, we will give it to you free.”  So, oh, this power is dynamite.  Now I could get happy now.  This is it.

Well, I didn’t know that this guy heard voices too.  He was one of these Born Again Christians,  and he didn’t tell me at the time, but God told him to offer me this office. They invited me to Bible studies, and I tore them up.

One day his partner walked up to me: a real crazy guy.  He had just returned from Israel, gentile, and do you know how much he got for working for a year in Israel as a volunteer?  Nothing, because he loved the Jewish people-- real meshuga. A really crazy guy, and not only that, they had Bibles on their desk.

I mean, you know, how are they doing in business?  So he walks up to me, and he said, “Sid, I have had enough of your disturbing our Bible studies.  I want you to know that you are involved in spiritual adultery.”

I said, “What are you talking about? Spiritual adultery?”  He said, “In your own Torah, in Deuteronomy, the 18th Chapter, God says it is an abomination to be involved in necromancing." Communicating with the dead. psychics, fortune tellers, all the things we Jewish people do-- and I might add-- most of the people that call themselves Christians do, and it says in the days of  Moses I would have been stoned to death.

So I did the nice, logical thing.  I said I will tell you what.  I am going to go into neutral gear.  I am not going to communicate with this voice I am hearing, this counselor, just in case it is evil. You know, I had problems with my marriage, now I don’t need problems with God,  and so I went into neutral gear and got the shock of my life.  This voice that had been my friend and my servant all of a sudden started cursing me especially when I started reading the Bible as this Christian friend of mine had suggested. 

Now I didn’t believe that Jesus was the Messiah.  I wasn’t even sure the Bible was from God, but I was sure that passage I read in Deuteronomy is correct, and I had opened myself up to something evil, and I wanted out.  In the past I could go to my Jewish parents, and they would bail me out of any mess I was in. But saying, "Mom, Dad, I had a demon inside of me-- can you help me?"  They would send me to a psychiatrist, and you know the number one profession for suicides per square inch in America? Psychiatrists. Go to my Rabbi? Psychiatrist.

I found there was nowhere I could go.  Now, my wife was raised Southern Baptist.  She became an agnostic in college.  The only reason she said she wasn’t an atheist was just in case, and she converted to Orthodox Judaism when we got married.  So you might say she was a Southern Baptist, agnostic, Orthodox Jew, and I figured anyone with those bases knows Jesus.  We were separated at the time.  I called my wife, I said, “Joy, it's bad.” I wasn’t going to explain it to her.  I knew there was no way she could understand. "Would you pray for me?” and she said, “Yes,” and she hung up.  I hung up.

Now she told me later, I didn’t know it at the time, she said, “I wasn’t sure there was a God.  Why would I pray for him? But he sounded so desperate, I prayed for him,” and she got down on her knees for the first time since she was a child and did pray for me.

Life was too tough.  I knew I had something evil inside of me.  I didn’t know how to get rid of it.  I didn’t know anyone that could help me get rid of it, and I was one of these positive thinkers; I could do anything.

Well, each of us has a breaking point.  I was at my breaking point, and I cried two word prayer, “Jesus, help.”  That was it, and I went to bed, and I really didn’t care whether I lived or died.  Life was too difficult, and when I woke up the next morning I can tell you there was such a feeling of peace, a euphoric – I had never taken drugs.  I drank very little, but thank God I was high only once in my life. 

So I can’t even equate drugs and drinking or anything that people feel, but I can tell you I had the most peaceful feeling when I woke up, and I had the knowledge that it had something to do with Jesus, that prayer, “Jesus, help,” and he did.  I knew that. 

And then I heard the voice of God for the first time in my life, and this is what he said, I didn’t even know this was in the Scriptures, he said, “I hate divorce. Return to your wife and daughter,” and God restored my mind.  He restored my wife, and it says to him who is forgiven much, they love much.

I don’t understand a backslider.  I do not understand someone that turns from God.  I have to believe they never really knew him because if you really know God, you really know there is a devil. 

If you really know there is a devil, then why in the world would anyone want to take one step towards him?  You are meshuga.  That’s a Hebrew word that means crazy. So I started following Jesus, and he restored everything there is about me, and over the years I was afraid of the miraculous.  I was afraid of people involved in the Charismatic because it looked so close to the New Age that I was involved in, and I didn’t want anything to do with that, but you know I didn’t realize at the time that the Bible says God has not given us a spirit of fear.  Fear is not from him, but of power, love and a sound mind, and what I was doing was tossing out the baby with the dirty bath water, and so over the years I began to see what the devil uses is a cheap counterfeit of something authentic, and I can tell you as a fact that anything that I have seen in the New Age is nothing.  It is a cheap counterfeit of the authentic, and so I was so fascinated with miracles.

I mean when I read the Bible, Jesus said, “You will do the same things that I have done and even greater,” and so I started a radio show in which I interviewed Jewish people that became believers in Jesus, and gradually I started shifting towards all people that had had miracles in their lives, and I found that as I read the Bible, that Jesus had a style.

His style was to demonstrate his Father’s Kingdom through a miracle to grab people’s attention, and then proclaim that their sins had been atoned for. So I started a television show in which I would interview people that have had bona fide miracles, and I can tell you that I have either interviewed or heard of every single miracle that is in the Bible, and it is happening with such frequency now that I am beginning to understand the miraculous.

Yet you know it is one thing to read about it in the Bible.  It is another thing to interview people that have had miracles, and both are wonderful, but it is another thing to walk in it yourself. And what I have found is it is not that these people are special. It is just that we have a special God, and it is the Messiah that does the miracles, but he says you must become like a little child.

That’s difficult because that means we have to scrap a lifetime of education in which you have been concentrating on the tip of the iceberg not even knowing 90% of the iceberg is under the water. In the intellectual world, everything works on the five senses, and God works on the invisible world, and so I am getting insights into how this invisible world operates.

 

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